18 October 2010

Love hurts

Being a mum can be really hard on you sometimes. To stand beside the one you love so much and watch her endure her own private pain, anxiety and frustration knowing that there is absolutely nothing you can do to make it go away. You can’t put a band aid on it, kiss it and make it better. This is beyond band aid, this is about losing your trust in someone you considered being your friend. This is a “life sucks” experience! This is something she will think back on as a life altering experience when she grows older but that’s not much comfort now is it?

But do you know what? Although I have preached non violence to my kids from an early age and have tried to tell them that violence doesn’t solve anything I must confess that my most primal feeling right now is to hunt someone down, grab them by their ears and shake some sense into them. No one messes with my kid and gets away with it! So dah! I don’t do that of course. She is 80 kilometers away from here and luckily for them so are they.

The hard thing though is that the only thing I want to do is hug her, hold her, wipe away her tears and say that life sucks now but it will get better. One day at the time. But the only thing I can do is talk to her on the phone and tell her that I love her.

Yep, being a mum is hard.

Love you kiddo!

Take care


LiLi M. said...

There comes a time when she is really grateful for that Jeanette, for being there for her always, not now of course, she has other more important matters on her mind. Being disappointed in people who you thought could be trusted is one of the worst experiences of growing up. We all have been there once or twice...and you'll never get used to it, though the rough edges seem to get softer once you know that there will always be people who you can count on. Always. No matter what.
You're doing great!
Hugs, LiLi

Carolina said...

Så fint skrivet! Förstår att det är jättejobbigt. Kram tiller båda

Jane LaFazio said...

ahh. hello dear Jeanette, it's soo very hard to see someone hurting, can't imagine what it's like when it's your own daughter. Hug her for me too!